The Holy Grail
The Holy Grail
The virtues.
© 2018,2022 By Peter M von Maltitz. Www.zanemvula.co.za
The "whole gradual development" of all 17 virtues
overcomes the limiting delusions that cause disease.
The virtues also lead to graceful enlightenment.
These virtues can prepare the soul of man so that it can
receive the blessings of spirit, like a chalice.
The idea of “the gradual development of soul virtues ”(The Holy Grail) was mentioned by Dr R Steiner on p49 in his lectures on “reincarnation and karma in the 9th century”. They consisted of 12 virtues. [Steiner 1924] I have only recently found the parallel sequence in the periodic table of elements described by Dr Jan Scholten as being 17 stages or unstable periods that correspond to the 17 stages of the development in the life of Hercules. Not only are there the 12 herculean tasks he had to perform but preparatory stages leading up to it, like being attacked in the cradle by two snakes. [Scholten 2007]
In the writings of Carlos Castaneda, there is mention of the four enemies to the person of knowledge: fear, clarity, power and old age. [Castaneda 1968] Page 84. These enemies correspond to the four medicine wheel directions in the teachings of the indigenous people of the Americas. The first direction represents the snake and fear.
The second direction represents by the lion. In the Herculean story, it is stage 4. So here we have a comprehensive system with two more steps between each of the four directions of the medicine wheel. The four traps or enemies to the person of knowledge are known. I set out to find the rest of the 17 traps. I read the case studies that Scholten described. Then I used the information from the healer courses I was running to match the traumas and contracts they had for creating their trauma. There also were matches to different diseases and matching profiles in the work of Scholten
on healing with the Lanthanides.
Knowing about the four virtues that can set one free of the traps, I set about discovering all 17 healing virtues that will restore the soul fragments which the contracts had driven out, as discussed with participants in the healer courses that I, Peter von Maltitz, facilitate. [Maltitz 2021]
I discovered that these were the virtues we were trying to teach ourselves by making the contracts so we could suffer the consequences and learn from the suffering. Unfortunately, most of humanity believes in “No pain, no gain” It certainly does work but has dire consequences. It is commonly called karma. Every time we create trauma for ourselves, there is a part of our soul that leaves. The soul part says it is unprepared to play this self-torture game and leaves. This way, we become increasingly crippled as the soul parts that go take along specific capacities that we lose. We can regain our lost fragments by changing our contract or agreement and practising the healing virtue.
The first practice of a virtue that woke me up to this possibility of cure was when I convinced a person with a very swollen and overactive thyroid to step forward and greet people and make them feel safe. The swollen thyroid melted back to normal within three months, with no other medication or treatment.
I just had to find the other 16 virtues to practice what cure other conditions!
Most essential to develop in sequence are the virtues of:
1) Humility = I practice being equal from the heart.
2) I know how little we know.
3) I am aware of multiplicity (no judgement).
4) I observe my decisions.
5) I coordinate my efforts with others.
6) I Greet all beings and make us all feel safe.
7) I am a channel of manifestation.
8) I develop endurance.
9) I practice wisdom.
10) I hold on to hope in adversity. I keep focused. I am patient.
11) I Embrace projects. I participate fully.
12) I accept myself as is. I live from my heart.
13) I complete all work that I start.
14) I Honour self as the causal agent of suffering.
15) I am grateful that we can experience our intents.
16) I Reconcile myself with my lot.
17) I let go of the idea of ownership of achievement.
The last four are also equivalent to the Ho’oponopono statements as the Hawaiian process of reconciliation and forgiveness. [Vitale 2008]
I am sorry. That you are suffering.
Please forgive me. That we are causing it.
I love you. So that I can forgive you.
I thank you. Because I received it through grace.
The original grail castle expresses twelve components with its heavenly wisdom. In the meantime, the divine wisdom has descended to earth and into the four chambers of the underworld. We find the humans battling intelligence in these realms, too, so the 12 have expanded into the 17.
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Traps of trauma
Further analysis of 4 directions into 12 stages identified 4 groups of 3 processes.
The traps of the 4 directions are based on fear, blame, greed and boredom.
Each of them are divided into three processes of will, feeling and thinking.
1. Is being afraid fear of outside
2. Is feeling afraid fear of failure to communicate
3. Is thinking fear fear of authority
4. Is blaming blaming others
5. Is feeling blamed feels blamed and unsupported
6. Is thinking blame thinks of how to overcome a challenge
7. Is being greedy being needy
8. Is feeling greedy feeling attacked, expecting attack
9. Is thinking greedy thinking of clever easy solutions
10. Is being bored seeks distraction
11. Is feeling bored feels dis-empowered
12. Is thinking of being bored thinking of betrayal
Each is further divided into active and passive reactions leading to conflict or submission and trauma. The decisions are based on “no pain, no gain”
Between these reactions stand an observation of a middle way that is an assertion of a right behaviour or virtue. The observation has to make use of a longer time frame to understand the consequences of decisions. The longer time frame incorporates at least three lifetimes.
1. Lifetime of reckless hurting another being. (first life)
2. Afterlife of experiencing the hurt from the victims point of view.
3. Realising that the reckless behaviour causes terrible results.
4. Realising that one forgets pain and suffering we organise someone to do it to us again in the next life so we will remember.
5. Next life we are being hurt as organised. (second life)
6. We forgot that we organised it and blame the perpetrator.
7. During our suffering and dying we make strong memories of our suffering and the implements used to hurt and kill us.
8. In the next life we walk around with the pictures of the weapons stuck in our bodies. They often even leave birthmarks on our new bodies. (third life)
9. Eventually these pictures become so prominent as to cause damage in this third life.
Whenever things are going badly in our lives we should be asking ourselves: “What are we trying to teach ourselves with this” We are trying to teach ourselves that practising the virtues would be better. Motivating ourselves to replace decisions causing trauma with the virtues that release us from the cause of trauma.
We can also recognise that we must forgive those who obliged our demands to be punished. We also have to forgive ourselves for demanding our punishment.
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Table of Contents
The Holy Grail...................................................................................................1
The virtues........................................................................................................1
Traps of trauma................................................................................................3
1) Humility. I practice being equal to all other beings, feeling it from my heart.
Not better or worse than anyone else in creation. I am overcoming fear..............5
2) I know how little we know— overcoming the fear of relating.......….…….......6
3) I am aware of multiplicity. I am thinking about diversity................….……......7
4) I observe my decisions. I do with will..........................................….…...........8
5) I coordinate my efforts with others. I am feeling to do..................….…….......9
6) I Greet all beings and make us all feel safe. I do with thinking.......….……....10
7) I am a channel of manifestation. Will flows through me.................….……....11
8) I develop endurance. Feeling sustains me.....................................….……....13
9) I practice wisdom. Thinking wisdom supports me........................….…….....15
10) I hold on to hope in adversity. I keep focused on intent..............….……....17
11) I embrace projects. I participate fully with feeling.......................….…….....18
12) I accept myself as is. I knowingly live from my heart..........................……..19
13) I complete all the work I start—imagining the flow of intent............….…….20
14) I Honour the self as the causal agent of suffering. I am sorry.............………22
15) I am grateful that we can experience our intents. Please Forgive me……….23
16) I reconcile myself with my lot. I love you..............….............................…..24
17) I Let go of the idea of ownership of achievement. Thank you........….……...25
Index.........…....................................................................................................26
Bibliography......................................................................................................27
The 17 actions.....................….........................................................................28
The 17 delusions that trap us so that we do not develop knowledge..….……....28
The ego needs for identification.............................................................….…...29
Please note that the supervision of a herbalist is required to oversee the use of suggested valuable herbs.
Printed on 2022-11-09
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1) Humility. I practice being equal to all other beings, feeling it
from my heart. Not better or worse than anyone else in
creation. I am overcoming fear.
Unless you practice humility, you will be in stress. You will either feel threatened or superior. Both cases lead to competition, the training ground for warfare. You cannot talk of peace if you are at war. You cannot speak of making friends if you are competing. They are mutually exclusive. One has to get off the pyramid concept. If you don't get off the pyramid, one of two things happens, depending on whether you feel greater or lesser than others. You become arrogant if you think you are more significant than others. Your self-importance feels threatened when you are judged or criticised by anyone, and you become angry. If you suppress the anger, then you have inflammation in the body, and then depression. (Fight – active response)
If you think you are lesser, then the stress of fear will get at you, and the suppression of fear will lead to the manifestation of eczema or psoriasis on the body's skin. As chronic aggravation progresses, it moves from fingers and toes to the legs and arms and then onto the body’s trunk. Now that it has led to the end of the skin possibilities, it moves into the mucous membranes and blocks up the nose. If further suppressed, it becomes asthma in the lungs, headaches, and finally, coma. Cortisone efficiently achieves this kind of suppression. (Collapse – passive response.) The easiest way to get to humility is by kneeling. When standing on your knees, you see the world from the vantage point of the heart. It is easy to see your equality when
looking from the heart. There is no way it can happen while thinking from the head. Just get up and down from your knees a few times and see how your awareness moves. When kneeling your energy increases 500 times. The herb Psoralea pinnata is known in the Xhosa igqirha tradition to help feel equal. I call it humilitea. To stay in the heart is another thing. When you stand on your knees for a while, you will notice how you can feel into the earth below your knees as you can visualise your imaginary feet in the earth. Feeling into the earth is even easier if you walk around barefoot. You are made acutely aware of your feet by walking over pebbles. When focusing on kneeling and noticing your imaginary feet in the ground, you will see what is below your feet in the earth, a dark blue sphere the size of a tennis ball. It is your earth centre. This awareness grounds you. Now concentrate and keep your imaginary feet in the ground while slowly getting up. First, into a crouching position like a Russian dancer, then straiten the legs with elbows on your knees. When you stretch your awareness from your heart to your imaginary feet while straitening up, your attention remains in your heart. You also feel taller by half a meter. You are standing in the earth instead of on top.
It’s inside, not on top! And your awareness turns into a sphere instead of being like a toadstool. (Read Carlos Castaneda at the railway station) [Castaneda]
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2) I know how little we know— overcoming the fear of relating.
There is no way of knowing what others know if you don’t talk to them. The
unknown increases exponentially with the increase of knowledge.
It is a dark place to be in if you are unaware of your ignorance. It is a place where people often try to stay with what is familiar. But even at home in the dark, anything we hear is assumed to be interference from outside. Nowadays, we often find that people will not acknowledge an experience unless they understand it. The dependence on understanding causes total limitation of emotional experience and turns into intentional ignorance. It is the modern disease of our times. When trying to think in words, we want to hear ourselves. The active response to not hearing ourselves think, is to clutch our hands over our ears. Throw a tantrum. Have a frothy.
The passive response is to try and ignore the external auditory overwhelm. This suppression manifests as autism. Chronic earache. Chronic tonsillitis. With chronic tonsillitis comes streptococcal infection of the tonsils. This tonsillitis is a sure sign that the body is too acidic. It is a sign like a red robot indicating to stop eating food like purified sugars that quickly turn to acid. Of course, some people find red traffic light signs pesky and have them removed. That, of course, does not solve anything except that you can continue eating the familiar fast food that is so familiar. Imagine being so adventurous as to eat fresh peas off a vine to taste a different kind of sweetness. The streptococcal bacterial infection spreads from the throat and grows in the bloodstream, where it adheres to all kinds of tissues and starts eating them. It can eat at the tendons of the heart valves and cause reduced blood pressure and heart murmurs. It can also attach to anything from tendons to nerve tissues causing inflammation. The body's immune system attacks the bacteria on your tissues, but it seems they attack your cells. Hence the start of wrongly labelled auto-immune conditions.
An excellent herb can be drunk as tea to remove streptococcal and rickettsia infections from the blood. It is imphephu or Helichrysum petiolare or its relatives. Do not take more than two cups a day, or it might relax the pelvic girdle so much that you can dislocate your lower back while picking up something weighty. Take the tea for at least ten days or till the swollen lymph nodes are completely gone. An excellent Homoeopathic mineral overcomes chronic ear problems in people who want to understand everything. It is Barium carbonate 30 CH once a day for three days, then wait out the week before starting again. Only start again if the symptoms reappear.
Ghosts attached to our bodies also cause internal noise, talking to one another and us. We should remove them.
The big challenge is overcoming the fear of communicating with people so that we can establish agreed values.
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3) I am aware of multiplicity. I am thinking about diversity.
Looking for the final external truth does not get us anywhere. We can look as much as we want, but external truth eludes us. So why are we searching for this truth that we can see as the ultimate authority? Because we fear it.
The active response is thinking that if they belong to and support a system, they will be safe. What will the church say? What will the government tell us or do to us? Do you know that more people have died from government policies than from fighting outside enemies? Did you know that civilian society created the police to protect people against organised crime, “the government”? That is the active response to a threat.
The passive form of reacting to that threat is hiding.
Generally, people who keep asking, "So what is really going on here" are in this dilemma. Why does the proper authority not sort it out? The thing is that everything is true and good in some specific situations. But that might not be your situation at this time. Even political systems are sometimes valid within different parts of your life. I once asked my father, “Please explain communism to me”. He said, “Well, everything has its right place. Communism works at home. If I go out to work and bring home food, we all have to share it. No one in the family has a special right to food. But it is difficult to make that system work in the public economy.” Travel is a good thing because it makes you see how many systems there are and how people live within them. It is not for us to judge them. If there was one thing that got the Europeans out of their stuck opinions in the middle ages was the crusades. It forced them to travel and see other ways of life.
Trying to force others to follow your system is nothing other than enforced slavery. Many people think they can't be wrong if they can cause you to believe in their system. Many wrongs do not make a right. Ultimately the proper response is that we must recognise that different systems work for different people. We do not need to judge anyone. We must recognise multiplicity. Live and let live.
We have already been enslaved into city-states for 7000 years in the west. You can read Tom Hartman: “The last hours of ancient sunlight” to get the details. [Hartman 2001]
The mineral remedy for freedom lovers that are confused in this way is Lanthanum. One of the Lanthanides. See more details in the book by Dr Jan Scholten.
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4) I observe my decisions. I do with will.
If it were not for the humility of stage one, we would never have become observers. Now that we can observe, we not only watch the outer world and recognise diversity, but we can also monitor our inner world and observe that we make decisions that have consequences. If you overlook your decisions, you won’t realise that you make them. If someone asks you to make tea for them and you fall down the stairs or burn your finger with boiling water, you cannot blame them. You may not realise that you agreed to fulfil their wish. That was your decision. Everything that happens after that
decision is your fault. You can’t get away with pretending that you disagreed. Now you can see you create your reality by agreeing to it.
A choice is not a decision because you are comparing outside pressures with one another. A decision comes from inside.
“Do you want coffee or tea?”
“Well, actually, I am thirsty and would prefer water."
If you do not make decisions, you can not be aware of yourself in action. It is easy to lose your sense of self if you do not make decisions consciously. Just enter any place of unstable confused people, and you are approached by them asking you what they should do now. No wonder they have lost themselves.
There is an active and passive resistance to making a decision.
Active resistance is when making a decision limits your future possibilities. We want it all. We want to taste everything at the restaurant.
The passive resistance is that we will be blamed and not be allowed to whine or complain that it was someone else’s “wrong” decision.
It takes courage to let go of everything you thought you knew and now create a new life out of your decisions. No longer looking for the outside authority to keep you safe with their promises. Now it is time to find the inner strength of courage to make decisions.
This stage is fraught with the anguish of not knowing how you will do what you have decided to do, but at least you are now making decisions and observing them. Making a decision is picking a goal. If you have a purpose, you can work towards the goal. If interim decisions do not bring you closer to your destination, then change them.
Make another decision. To go on a journey and see what happens is pointless. That is why people used to make a pilgrimage. You had a clear destination, and you went to seek a revelation.
When you start executing your decisions, you will gain self-respect and confidence. The common cold is the most common disease when we do not dare to make decisions. The first aid remedy for that is to have a drink of courage. The direct translation of the herb known in isiXhosa as umhlonyane is courage. In SiSutu, courage is called legano. The binomial name is Artemisia afra. [van Wyk] Making a decision raises your frequency over 200. [Hawkins 1995]
The mineral remedy is the Lanthanide Cerium.
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5) I coordinate my efforts with others. I am feeling to do.
The problem is trying to get a big job done. Would it be possible to get help?
The active response is to jump into action. If you are struggling with getting things done on your own because you are cautious (not sure you are doing it the right way) and stop, only to start again and think that doing it fast is going to solve it, then you are on the way to exhaustion.
The famous story of Hercules and the hydra is an excellent picture of this stage. Every time Hercules cut off the hydra’s head, another two would grow out of the severed neck. The problem would just get bigger and bigger. The more you do, the more the work becomes. It’s exhausting not to make headway.
The passive response to the challenge of executing your decision, is to expect people to help. You expect the activity to flow. When no help is forthcoming, you become frustrated and moody. You have to ask someone to help. Asking for help may be hard for you because you cannot finish a sentence when you ask for help. Even asking is interrupted in this stage because you are unsure that you are doing it right.
Coordinating with others makes the job to be done accessible and attainable. But how to do it. Helping you does not mean they have to duplicate what you are doing. It is not working anyway. The thing to do is see the bigger picture, explain what you are trying to do, and explain to your helper or teammates what they need to do to coordinate success. They cannot see your vision if you do not explain what you are trying to do, so they do not know how to help.
Hercules solved his problem by getting his cousin to help. He asked him to hold a flaming brand ready so that when Hercules chopped off a head of the hydra, the cousin would cauterise the wound with the burning branch’s flames before the hydra’s neck could grow two new heads. He could not get the last head off, so he buried it under a stone.
So if you cultivate this virtue, not only will life become much more manageable, you will have overcome paralysing conditions of obsessive-compulsive activity. You will avoid developing Parkinson’s later in life.
The mineral remedy is the Lanthanide Praseodymium.
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6) I Greet all beings and make us all feel safe. I do with
thinking.
Many people feel vulnerable if they think they are exposed.
The active response is that they would rather stand back until they jump forward and surprise others. I once worked for a man who took delight in trying to surprise me. He used to sneak up from behind and strike down a ruler on the table next to me, where I was working, to see how high I would jump. Hunters have this behaviour.
The moment of surprise always leaves the prey bewildered, unprepared, confused and at a disadvantage. Frightening people make the hunter feel in control. It is also the behaviour of someone who wants to prove that they can do something themselves. There is something of delaying tactics, such as putting things off until the last minute before doing it in a great rush.
This process leads to changes in the body as well. Their thyroids develop unnaturally large (hyperthyroidism), and their eyes swell up to look like someone who wants to frighten you (glaucoma). Frightening others is the extreme active response to the threat of being exposed.
The Passive response to a threat is no response. These people slow down and move slower and slower and swell up. Their metabolism slows down, and they develop hypothyroidism. They can’t even imagine surprising anyone.
The most challenging thing for both of them to do is step forward when meeting someone, especially someone new, and say:
“Hello, my name is Jack Frost. You are welcome to call me Jack."
If they have the courage and someone to keep reminding them to greet people, then, within three months, the goitre will be gone. I have seen it happen several times. It works for over and under-active thyroid problems as the healing middle way.
The mineral remedy is the Lanthanide Neodymium.
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7) I am a channel of manifestation. Will flows through me.
One of the extraordinary delusions that people hold about power is that they can possess it. Nowadays, people demand that we stand in our power as if we can own it.
The active response to power is trying to own it. That is active greed. Everyone who has had the thrill of surfing has experienced what it is like to be at the right time and place to catch a wave. And then ride it without getting out of the position of maximum incline and losing the momentum. No surfer thinks he is creating the wave. You have to be able to read the darkening horizon and recognise the approach of a set of swells and know what to expect. Then get into the position to catch the right wave.
In the same way, you have to read where the power comes from so that you can harness its power. You have to know the power and how to align with it. And when you are plugged into its movement and feel what it is doing, you can ride it. Any power feels like magic. Any force has a natural flow and direction. In the ocean, you can see the path of the waves. Initially, they move in the direction of the wind that drove them, then turn to shore and move relentlessly towards the shallows. You can weave across them while they move, but you cannot change their direction except by changing the topography of the sea bed.
Often people only learn by losing the connection to the wave of energy.
As an athlete, you can run on your own, but you can only do so much. In a
competition, you can often do much better. You can do even better in significant sports events in a team. There is an excellent example of an athlete running very well and way ahead of the field when suddenly, near the end of the race, he slowed down, and most athletes overtook him. Afterwards, his trainer asked him what he was thinking of when he ran. He said that he was initially running for his country and felt exhilarated. Then as he approached the final stretch, he thought of how he would be standing on the podium as the winner. He had moved from accessing the nation’s energy to accessing only his energy. He became unplugged from the more substantial energy. The identification is it. He did not understand where the energy came from or how to stay plugged in. You cannot own the power, only flow with it or let it flow through you.
The passive response to power is expecting handouts. Hence the statement of rejecting people that don’t benefit us. That is incredibly egotistical. Always keep the larger picture in mind. Be a channel of manifestation. Giving and receiving are both required to create balance. Keep the flow going. If you cross your arms over your chest, turning your hand downwards, even in greeting, you dominate and give. This one-sided approach to relationships invariably leads to a stroke.
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The stroke will paralyse you, and you have no choice but to accept help.
It comes down to the basic fact that we should not help ourselves but help others and accept assistance from others.
You can recognise another delusion that says: “Physician cure thyself.” What absolute nonsense. If we could help ourselves, we would have no society.
There is a story of two people who died. One went to hell, and the other went to heaven. After a while, they returned to earth. When they came back, the people asked them how it was. The man who went to hell said it was a terrible place. There were long tables with delicious food. It was so tempting but they were only allowed to eat with the spoons provided and holding them on their ends. The spoon handles were too long so that they could not get the food to their mouths and they suffered from hunger. The man who came from heaven said it was a remarkable pace. There were these long tables with delicious food. They had these lovely long spoons so they could easily feed one another. It is the same place. It is your behaviour that makes the diference.
Whenever I meet someone with a stroke, I ask them how much they enjoyed helping others. Invariably they would agree that, indeed, that is what they did. Then I would ask them that if it was so good, why did they deny others the pleasure to be able to enjoy helping them?
The stroke medicine is Incafincane (Leonotis leonurus) which translates as “help one another.” Adding Witgat tree leaves speeds up recovery even faster.
The mineral remedy is the Lanthanide Promethium.
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8) I develop endurance. Feeling sustains me.
After having done something, there always seems to be a comment. Feeling vulnerable, we interpret it as a backlash and attack. Stick out your head, and someone tries to cut it off.
The passive response to feeling vulnerable is to hide. Pull your head back. We are wont to give up and prefer to escape the perceived demands. We expect to be helped, like receiving free education or having a mentor, so we can have instant success.
Little do we realise that success is the one thing for which people will never forgive you. Like gravity, it is always there while we are in this material body and seems to drag us down and make life feel heavy.
Gravity is a given and is not attacking us. We have to endure it.
The active response is to plan a defence against the expected attack. As a result, one gets tense and plays out a scenario in your mind of how one can protect oneself. This defensive feeling leads to excessive development of the small nerves in the skin. This constant expectation of being hurt activates the nerves, growing many more in the skin, called multiple sclerosis, to go into continuous pain. The precursor of this state often comes from being bullied in your youth.
The mineral remedy is the Lanthanide Samarium.
How do we emotionally overcome this trauma? We must realise that people focus on their own needs, and it only appears to be directed at us if we get in the way of them expressing their needs. We must realise that it was an expression of themselves, not directed at us. Don’t try and own their self-expression. Instead, we need to accept that it is a part of our environment and that we develop the ability to endure it as a necessary condition of existence.
In this state, we even feel that our motives are continually questioned and challenged.
Feeling as if others are judging us seems to be unbearable. But it is just awareness of discordant thoughts. Thoughts that feel like they come crowding into our minds without being invited. These can also be thoughts coming up from our subconscious.
We took them on. So how do we deal with those?
Here is an easy way I found that derives from brain gym. Start by sitting upright on a chair. Cross your legs over at the ankles. Try both ways. Right over left, then left over right. One is more comfortable; the other makes you feel stronger. Use the stronger.
Now hold the back of your hands together. Cross over your wrists so that the palms of the hands clasp together. Once again, try right wrist over left and left over right. Use the one that makes you feel stronger.
Keep your head up straight and look down with your eyes. Now you can close your eyes but keep them directed downwards. Directly you are connected to your subconscious.
Make a positive statement like:
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“I am free”, or “I have the right to be here”, or
“I have the right to be happy.”
Suppose you are sensitive or have been practising meditation. In that case, you will immediately feel the surge of the response coming from the subconscious — something like “only if I am friendly” or whatever. You will notice that this is “a holy cow” or condition. See where it came from: parent, teacher, friend and why on earth did you accept that? You can decide that you do no longer tolerate this and clear it out. You can only clear it out if you hand it back to whoever told you the false opinion. You can say, “Thank you for your opinion, but I no longer need it. Here, you can have it back.”
Now feel the relief. Now for a Kent addendum. You can cross over your wrists the other way, twist up your arms in front of your chest, and make your statement again. The response will be from the gentler family member or your mother. Move your clasped hands to your forehead and make your statement again. Now the response will be something about religion or spirit or father authority. Hand all the objections back. Now see the total relaxation. Now it is easy to endure it, yes?
Start with a list of true positive affirmations. I have a list for each chakra.
Some people even feel we are attacked by the unknown.
There are also thoughts that crowd into our minds from ghosts. They are more like back seat drivers. They constantly lobby that we should go somewhere or do something. In weak situations they may even take over and poses our body so that we are unaware of what we say. When they take over our body it can change rapidly. Even your blood type can change within 30 seconds. That’s what we call normal schizophrenia. Some remedies like Mancinella can be useful here. Personally I prefer to remove the ghosts and take them to heaven.
Then there are beings of torture who take over and criticise us. They take over our lower bowl where there are enough nerves to make up the nervous system of a cat.
When they poses us we accuse others with criticism. We are not even aware of doing that. Satan is the old Hebrew name for this being. These psychotic episodes are called by some to be Aggravated Schizophrenia.
Taking herbs like Pepperbark, dock-root and fennel seed can stop the inflammation of the gut temporarily and stop us hearing the barrage of accusations. Personally I prefer to bring people back to their senses immediately by crossing their arms over their chest with their hands on their shoulders and pressing on the crossed arms and on their back at the same time. Once they are back we laugh at the ridiculous situation of taking ourselves too seriously and the Satan flees.
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9) I practice wisdom. Thinking wisdom supports me.
When running into a problem of not knowing how to manage to carry out a decision, we
usually think it is a shortage of knowledge.
The active response is to find the information. We return to the books, the library, or find an application. Anything to get hold of the elusive “know-how” to solve every problem. Then we are often called the “wise guy” because we are looking for the right thing to do to make things easy. It corresponds to the stage in the story of Hercules when tasked to clean out the big stables for the horses and cattle of Augeias. Hercules could do that if he had the time, but he had to clear all the dung of ages out in one day without help. Now that was a challenge.
Collecting a lot of knowledge is like managing a lot of dung. In excess, it just bogs one
down and smells terrible. Now the pressure of time comes into play.
The passive response is to demand others to help us. We need free education. We want a mentor to teach us and guide us.
Information, however, is not the answer, but wisdom is. It is not just know-how but when to do it. That is because wisdom is born from experience and not from knowledge. That is why it takes a long time to get there—building up experience.
The wise advisor Athena came to Hercules and suggested he divert the river through the stables and achieve the challenge in one day. Looking at the bigger picture when looking for a solution is always good. If one has not attained experience, then at least listen to the stories of the experience of others or your own experiences from previous lives. There is a further problem of remembering wisdom. Retrieving it.
The essence of solving the problem is accessing wisdom.
Thinking is projecting logic into the future. We retrieve our wisdom from behind us, from our past. Receiving that from behind is called guidance. Walking backwards activates our awareness of guidance. Say: “I live and practise wisdom.”
If you only try and use thinking and future planning, you have headaches in the front of
your head. Because thinking requires concentration, it leads to compression in the front of
the head. Using concentration to think precisely, you bog up the sinuses. This forward
striving attempts to deal with tomorrow, the future, with thinking.
You can recognise it in people with a central vertical line on their forehead and brow.
Constant planning leads to circular thinking until the nerves form little knots in the head,
just like the sword fern forms knots in the soil with its roots. Frontal focus leads to the
expression of Alzheimer’s. Guess what happens when you breathe the fumes of burning sword fern leaves.
The solution is to take into consideration the past. That brings in what lies behind you, the history of us all. You can also bring this awareness into your body immediately by walking backwards. See how the frontal headache disappears immediately. You will experience that walking towards a point behind you is impossible. Walking backwards makes you aware of the bigger picture. It is the influence of guidance. Then step forward again and see the difference. Once you know this polarity, all that is needed to access the two hemispheres is
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to lean forward or backwards while sitting in your chair.
Then, when sitting up straight, we find a balance. We are in the present, between the past and the future—the whole picture.
Discovering the present is a great gift, especially if we can work from the heart. That now is the essence of time: Wisdom.
The mineral remedy is the Lanthanide Europium.
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10) I hold on to hope in adversity. I keep focused on intent.
I am capable, and I want it done my way. Fully confident and capable. This is the most extrovert stage of all the steps. Very capable people are not always achievers. They often find life easy, but the day they get frustrated, they fail to show the stamina to solve the problems.
The active response to being frustrated is having no time for fools. He become impatient if everything does not go faster. He becomes an adrenalin addict. He can destroy his relationships. Just because we have not yet reached a goal, there is no point in giving up. Even if you are tired or it hurts, there is no excuse for letting go of the goal. The goal must be held clearly, just like a decision. It is the focus that helps us keep it. The challenge is to remain patient, as only that makes the teacher.
The passive response to being blocked is to seek diversion through entertainment. Playing games, watching news, is endless distraction that holds ones attention without having to concentrate. You think you are concentrating but afterwards it is very difficult to recall what happened.
To worry is to give in to thinking of all the things that can go wrong. Keeping the focus on one goal is what we need to achieve success. To hesitate is to lose everything. Some people call hope the name of faith. The parable of the tiny mustard seed is that it holds to its goal and brings forth a great tree in time. That seed has faith.
Most people who have developed the ability to focus and have acquired the virtues that lead up to it, like observation; decision; and strength, are competent. So capable that they think they can do everything themselves. Then they become self-important and lose focus on why they are there. Now they feel disgusted by the incapable fools who are not capable. As they say: they find it hard to suffer fools. At this point, the parasitic being steps in that thinks he is the cat’s whiskers. It is none other than Lucifer himself or the Impundulu in South Africa. He is a being of light, shining like a cloud, but it is a false light. It is the reflected light of the sun. It is not
his light. He comes down, like a fly, excited with all this disgust. He eats and thrives on our disgust and arrogance as it is the essence of his nature. As long as we create aversion, he is here for the meal. That does not sound too bad. After all, Lucifer is just cleaning up wasted energy we cannot use. The problem is that this cloud of a being casts a shadow like all clouds. And sitting in a shadow is very depressing. Now you know from where depression comes. I have yet to see a depressed person who does not
think they are superior in some form, emotional, mental, or religious. It starts from a young age when one of the parents says the child is unique and special! Here the delusions start. They are so special that they do not even feel they must bother with difficult relationships. They are so special that they lose focus on society. They start living on their own. They are very busy with their own way.
The mineral remedy is the Lanthanide Gadolinium.
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11) I embrace projects. I participate fully with feeling.
In conditions where we can no longer control everyone, we distrust the situation. We seek trust.
The active response is to try and influence the activities of people we experience as overbearing and boisterous.
We may feel that as long as we can guide what they do into positive behaviour towards others, we will also have fair treatment. As you know, the prescription does not always work. The more we think of how we can guide them, the more we are stressed and have headaches—mostly headaches on the sides of the head. We pull back our chins. The activity of these boisterous people makes us feel lesser, overwhelmed and used. When we try to control, we open ourselves to the black
witches who want to control everything. These black witches look like bats flying in strobe light. They stretch their arms through our head’s temples, and their grasping hands come out of our eyes. These controlling beings make people withdraw from us. We become what we were afraid of, creating the fear of being controlled by others.
The passive response is to withdraw our support. We feel we cannot support or trust an initiative that we did not create. We loose energy and feel less and less inclined to put any energy into the project and literally collapse out of it.
The only alternative is to go inside and trust your own guidance within to engage in the project. Once we have decided then engage with others in equal enthusiasm and vigour. To watch them and try to moderate their activities is overtaxing. We only have to moderate our own response. Join in and support any initiative that creates more good for everyone and be invigorated in the process.
The mineral remedy is the Lanthanide Terbium.
Compare other stages of being challenged with communicating with feeling.
2 Trying to understand the consequences of outer perception. Fear.
5 Trying to do, dealing with consequences of decision. Blame.
8 Trying to deal with criticism, consequences of doing. Greed.
11 Trying to deal with the motives of others. Bitterness, disappointment, hatred. Seeking trust.
All of them are emotionally stressed.
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12) I accept myself as is. I knowingly live from my heart.
One of the most challenging things we encounter is to recognise ourselves. We want to see our impact on the world. Some people go as far as saying that reality is how other people perceive us.
Our active response is trying to discover what other people say about us. Because most people are polite and would not say anything negative to our faces, we distrust them and try to find second-hand stories from others. It deludes us into believing what is called “hearsay”. Hearsay is not permissible in court, and yet we gladly accept it as evidence of other people badmouthing us, and we decide to feel hurt and betrayed. Feeling hurt is our decision.
It gets even worse. We may think of how these other people who betrayed us are planning our downfall and misery. Remembering our thoughts of these musings, we start believing that these musings happened in real life. Then we start acting on these memories as if they had happened.
We believe in our preferred version of reality, so when someone compliments us, we cannot even recognise it. We cannot hear or accept a compliment because we believe it is not true but only lies to subdue us.
Hanging onto our thoughts of hurt and burying them in our bodies leads to the body cramping up into cancer. Before we die of cancer, most see psychic crabs walking around us. It seems we are so embarrassed by our thoughts of anger towards those that we feel have betrayed us that we hide the anger in our organs where they wreak havoc. If you help these people express themselves, we are horrified by the violence of their outbursts. Then it is easy to see how these violent feelings can cause this disease. Where the disease starts is also of consequence. When a woman is frustrated by unending caring for her family, that organ of caring and nurturing goes into revolt, her breasts.
It can be her grown-up kids, still living at home, or her retired husband. Many women also get cancer within three years of a divorce if they feel their ex-husband left them disrespectfully with no resources.
The passive response to hearing negative stories about ourselves is to try and hide our feelings and thoughts from the world by suppressing them. We are in fear of being rejected and persecuted. We are shocked by criticism. We assume everyone talks of us behind our backs. We are deeply upset and angered. We further isolate ourselves instead of having emotional boundaries. Boundaries are not walls. Even the Zulu understood that the best defence was watching what everyone was doing. Their shields even took on the form of eyes watching. The straps across the front of the shield could trap a spear head and when they jerked the shield up they could snap it off. As the shield went up their jabbing spear went forward like a broadsword.
What other people think or say of us is none of our business.
We must give up this desire for the respect that we cannot even hear when we are complimented. Stand on your knees so you can feel yourself in your heart, and then think about what you want to do from your heart. The best is to live from your heart.
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From your heart you are 200 times stronger emotionally that someone in their head. From your heart you can see if you are the one who tries to defend yourself or the one actively living out your good kind intentions. Whatever someone else says, it is just from their point of view of themselves. When you stand in front of them, you think they are talking to you? And listen to yourself talking. You are talking about yourself. About what is in you that you can recognise outside. If someone gives you advice and you notice their lips moving but you temporarily went blank, ask them to repeat it twice more. It is meant for you, and it is so difficult for you to process, that your conscious mind filters it out.
This stage is the last of the twelve virtues represented by the medicine wheel of twelve directions. It also means hanging onto life in a way that we lose it.
The plant remedy to start setting up boundaries is Staphisagria 30CH
The animal remedy for hanging onto the rocks and grudges is from the shell of a rock crab. Even strong waves cannot dislodge their gripping claws.
The mineral remedy is Lanthanide Dysprosium
The energetic remedy is making sure their ida and pingala are working all the way to the navel and supplying it with enough energy to digest your food.
The picture remedy from the stars that define the function and structural
differentiation of the cells needs to be transmitted through all the chakras into the physical body. A block between any two chakras will prevent the transmission.
13) I complete all the work I start—imagining the flow of intent.
What an exciting process. It is a process of getting on with what we started. Many parents complain that their teenagers do not seem to want to grow up and take responsibility for their lives. The child decides to do something and then wants others to help him do it because he feels he does not have enough expertise to complete it.
The active response to running into problems, is to run back to where they used to get help. They even want to get married, move back in with the parents, with children and everything else, and then expect to be fed and housed, etc.
This trap does not only stay with young people. Anyone can fall into this trap of feeling they need help.
“Why does nobody want to help me?”
“After all, I started something, so why doesn’t everyone just join in and help?"
There is nothing like the joy of finishing something. If you want to blame someone, then blame yourself for not finishing what you started. When you finish things, you also understand what is involved in the process. It also
puts a bit of a damper on starting without preparing correctly, but at least this
develops your capacity to plan and not give up because “it did not work”. It is not “it” that must work, but the “me” must commit to seeing it through. Plan and educate yourself as to how you can make it work by first apprenticing yourself to a job you aspire to do one day.
As Malcolm Gladwell in “Outliers has shown us”, it takes 10 000 hours of practice to become professional at anything. Patience, concentration and exercise for 10 000
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hours.[Gladwell 2008] That is why most people take seven years to develop a profession.
This stage in Hercules’s story represents the transition into the underworld. It is a stage after the end of our lives, after death, when we relive everything we did in life from the perspective of everyone to whom we did it.
It is the completion of the act. Together, giving and receiving are the whole act. We have to overcome the idea that we are separate. We are one. Hurting the other is hurting yourself.
In the story of Hercules, he is sent into the underworld. He is sent from the outer world. Half way he crosses over into the underworld or dark inner world. He comes to Oceanus, one of the titans, children of Gaia. Everything seems to change completely and he stalls. Lost and confused. He feels it is dangerous. He has to battle with Geryon of the three bodies. Hera steps in and protects Geryon’s third body. It distracts him from his intention. He keeps trying to overcome the third body. Because he persists trying, Zeus eventually helps with thunder and lightning. After much fighting with greedy robbers he eventually brings the herd of oxen to the King.
The mineral remedy is Lanthanide Holmium.
The psychological healing is finishing what you set out to do.
Zeus helps to subdue the titans with thunder and lightning from the upper worlds.
We also need to turn to the upper worlds of Dynameis, Kyriotetes, Thrones,
Cherubim and Seraphim to receive help and turn away from the Titan powers.
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14) I Honour the self as the causal agent of suffering. I am
sorry.
Or as expressed in Ho’oponopono: “I am sorry.” In this first of the chambers of the underworld, we see our traumas. We have created all the traumas for ourselves and others with who we were involved. No wonder we need to say: “I am sorry.”
It is difficult to accept that we cause our suffering. If we experience any suffering, then it is because we created it. It is because we are looking for hurt. So we find it. Feeling hurt is a creation of ours.
Sticks and stones can break my bones, but it is the words and accusations we hear and own that hurt us. They can only hurt when we own them. That is what is meant by attachment.
Most of humanity subscribes to: “no pain, no gain.” That means we think that we and others have to learn by suffering. We own this inclination. It is the basis of all aggression and war. We believe it is good. Isn't that bizarre?
I have heard of a man that the United Nations uses. He believes that whatever strife he meets must be his fault because he experiences it. They take him from one crisis to another, and he stands there and feels sorry, and everything changes.
We need to find a way to feel with our hearts so that we are sorry for what is not working in our immediate surroundings.
If we cannot feel this, then we become paralysed. The most common disease that comes from this is a weakness to the point of polio. We wish to help, but the weakness overcomes us. The more we try to help, the weaker we get. Why? Because thinking of helping, means we think we are separate. You feel cut off from support if you think you are separated. You think you are helping them because it is their problem. It would be best if you did what you could because you realise it is your problem. You have to feel sorry. You have to do it out of yourself.
I have to know that I am sorry.
Not to blame me but to honour my SELF.
NB: The description of the four parts of the underworld comes from Alberto's book “Mending the past and healing the future with soul retrieval” [Viloldo 2005]
The mineral remedy is the Lanthanide Erbium.
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15) I am grateful that we can experience our intents. Please
Forgive me
Or as expressed in Ho’oponopono: “Please forgive me.”
In this second chamber of the underworld, we can experience our contracts. We made agreements with ourselves about how we think the world works. They are our opinions about how things are. Sometimes they are expressed as opinions about how other people should behave, but that immediately becomes prescriptions for ourselves.
Because we created these binding agreements, they seem so obviously true to us that, at first, we find it difficult to realise that it is an assumption we made and that it could even vaguely be the reason for our suffering.
We feel trapped in our situation and want to blame everyone else for the problem. I cannot help but think of the lovely description in an “Autobiography in Five Short Chapters” By Portia Nelson. Please read this to see how we can feel like we have fallen into a hole and that it is not our fault. [Nelson 2018]
It brings us to the familiar feeling or dream of people with HIV and TB. And then you get the devastation of both diseases together. If you have seen the look in the eyes of people living with HIV, it is easy to see why they always seem to say as well: “So what are you going to do about it?”
They feel helpless to do anything about it because they feel someone has done this to them, and it cannot possibly be their fault. The demand is unconditional love and assistance.
We first have to realise that we have contracts that can be devastating. The next thing is to learn that any contract that has a not in it causes absolute inner turmoil in us because the conscious version says “not so,” and the unconscious version says " is so" because the unconscious does not hear the word “not”. Some sensible languages, like the Inuit, do not even contain the “not” word. Just see what the contract “I shall not kill” did to someone from Durban: She ran someone down with her car every month. “They just kept on jumping in front of my car. I can't understand it.” With what you now know, you can understand it. Just imagine what all these negating religious commandments have done to Christians, Hebrews and Moslems. No wonder, so many of them are in anguish.
Our minds follow the letter of the law, not what you think of as your good intent.
So now comes the moment of recognition.
Be grateful for getting what we requested. If we are not grateful, it indicates that we do not remember what and how we asked for it.
So “Please forgive me,” says that it is our contract causing it.
The Ho’oponopono words.
We can change our contracts and let go of the ones that cause harm. Replace it with the active virtue of practising Gratitude.
The mineral remedy is the Lanthanide Thulium.
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16) I reconcile myself with my lot. I love you
Or as expressed in Ho’oponopono: “I love you.”
The third underworld chamber is the beautiful place where we reconcile with the previously lost parts of the soul. It is one thing to retrieve lost parts of the soul, but it is another to keep them with you. You can only stay together when reconciled. That means taking into account all the needs of others, which includes recognising them and their need to express their qualities, joys, and achievements. It is because we denied them in the first place that they left.
This battle is happening continuously in every relationship. It is the battle of trying to be seen. It is that battle of trying to find that one person who will give us exclusively, undivided attention so that we can bask in that recognition and feel that we are special. It is the prize that snares us. And if we see this as a conquest to achieve the prize, we will be sorely disappointed.
We must practice honest kindness towards others to avoid driving them away. We must accommodate their needs, and when they do things that we feel entirely override our needs, we must forgive them repeatedly because they did not notice or we reacted out of old history. The practice of daily forgiveness is the practice of “I love you”.
If we hold a grudge, we resist and block them. We start fermenting unrest and become ever more obnoxious. We even begin smelling obnoxious. And what is more, we keep that rotting state in us to the point that when we suppress it, the body starts rotting, and we get ulcerative colitis etc. In our obnoxious nature, we withdraw from society,
become recluses and outcasts, and simultaneously think we are so grand.
We convince ourselves that others do not like us and hide in the process.
We must reconcile with our situation and not feel abused, misunderstood, or
excluded. We must be here and try to hear others by listening to their stories and telling our stories of experience. Listening to ourselves and how we tell our stories and then listening to how others tell our stories makes us realise what others heard us say. What parts could they hear? Why did they hear that part? Did we describe it in a story so they could hear it? Can we listen to their story, or are we just waiting for them to stop talking so we can carry on with our story?
The mineral remedy is Lanthanide Ytterbium
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17) I Let go of the idea of ownership of achievement. Thank
you.
Or as expressed in Ho’oponopono: “Thank you.”
In the fourth chamber of the underworld, we come to collect our gifts. It is a place to receive what we can use to help others.
Many people do not know they have gifts and do not collect them.
Then others think their gifts are just rewards for all their hard work and discipline.
They think they own their gifts. It is a challenge to spirit. Whenever we attach our self-worth to anything, we will lose it to prove that we still exist, even when it is no longer there. It includes our history, wisdom, possessions, experiences, and even our sense of freedom.
So finally, when it gets down to the fundamentals of freedom, we are prepared to admit: “I would rather die than lose my freedom”.
If we can say “Thank you” for our gifts, we no longer own them because we do not think of them as something we deserve, as we received them.
This desire for ownership brings us right down to physicality and personality. When our personality becomes disenchanted with the guidance from its self to the point of doubting itself, then the Asura take it as an instruction from the personality to cut off its access to its higher self. At that moment, it feels as if we suddenly lose something precious, and we may not be aware that it is access to ourselves. We become rudderless and confused. We see it in the vacant eyes of people who look like zombies. We see it in people who go through terrible relationship struggles. We see it in people who would rather die.
It is visible as a grey mist or veil over our shoulders.
In ancient times the development of our personality was started by the Archai when they looked us in the eye. Now in this age, when the personality has developed so strongly that it feels that it can go alone, the fallen Archai or the so-called angel of death or Asura will help us die.
The mineral remedy is the Lanthanide Lutetium.
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The 17 actions.
Sometimes the easiest way to differentiate between the 17 periods in the Lanthanides is to look how they express their need for freedom. The question is not what they do but how they do anything.
1. Acting impulsively without justification.
2. Acting within the familiar leads to confusion. Into the Darkness.
3. Confusion leads to seeking authority to justify action. Is it right?
4. Decide what to do. But how to do it? Observe how they are done.
5. Am I doing it in the right way? Cautious. Stop. Start again.
6. Can I do it? There are dangerous consequences. Use speed. Do it at the last moment. Aloof.
7. I can do it.
8. I feel attacked if I do anything.
9. If I am clever I can succeed.
10. I feel tired, and I lose interest. I am self centred. Haughty. Impatient. I let go what does not
benefit me.
11. I lose power, lose control. Try to be the gentleman. I will benefit from getting help for
everyone. I take on the sufferings of others.
12. I have been betrayed. I become defensive. I hold on to everything. I want to know what
others think of me behind my back.
13. I need help. I can only get half way without help.
14. I am weak. I cannot do anything.
15. I blame others for my situation.
16. I would rather be an outcast than be trapped or enslaved in a system.
17. I would rather die than lose my freedom by committing.
The 17 delusions that trap us so that we do not develop
knowledge.
1. Anger protects us. / Fear prevents us from getting into trouble. Entitlement justifies us.
2. Understanding makes it safe. / Fear of failure at work. I am safe at home, within familiar.
3. Outside authority will fix everything. /Fear of authority.
4. Generalisation makes it easy/simple. / Fear of consequence of decision.
5. Activity will make us achieve everything.
6. Being tough protects us.
7. Power puts us in control.
8. I am attacked if I do anything.
9. Information will make life easy.
10. I can lose interest in others as they do not benefit me. I have no time for fools.
11. I can maintain power by controlling / protecting others.
12. That I am not Respected.
13. I need help to complete anything.
14. There is a promise that will release me from suffering.
15. I blame everyone else for what happens.
16. A prize is promised to me.
17. Glory and victory will bring rewards to me.
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The ego needs for identification
Virtues The issues
1. I want to feel myself. 1. Equality Confronting outside
2. I want to hear myself 2. Unknown Physical
3. I want security. 3. Variety
4. I want everything. 4. Decision Blame/shame
5. I expect everything should flow. 5. Coordinate Plant
6. I overwhelm. 6. Greeting
7. I do. 7. Channel Greed / need
8. I am vulnerable. 8. Endurance Astral
9. I want a guide. 9. Wisdom
10.It is my way. 10.Patience Boredom/ focus/entertain
11.I seek to trust. 11.Embrace
12.I believe hearsay. 12.Live from the heart
13.I let danger distract me. 13.Must finish tasks Change
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14.I suffer. Underworld 14.Sorry Consequence
15.I seek freedom of accusations. 15.Forgiving Blame
16.I seek sweetness. 16.Love Reconcile
17.I seek abdication. 17.Thank you Gift not for me.
Step out of embodiment Out of ego.
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18.I have abdicated. Upper world 18. I maintain balance. Earth aether.
Overcome sorrow. Love.
19.I meet. 19. We meet. Water aether.
Overcome significance. Intimate.
20.I am lost. 20. We join. Light aether.
Overcome emptiness. Shine
21.I am annihilated. 21. We arise. Fire aether.
Overcome pretence. Real
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